I’ve been coming to Hearts for over a year ( although I’m only just getting back into classes again after a few months off at the beginning of this year when I opened a new business). So often when I’m walking home from a class I have an idea of what I’d like to say to everyone who works there and the instructors who do such a good job so basically, I’ve written down what I’ve wanted to say for a while. I hope it makes sense and I hope it encourages you.
Every time we step into the gym we carry with us a story, a reason why we’re here. On the surface those stories may seem similar, we’re here to loose weight and get fit but there’s normally more to it than that. Whether it’s for self-confidence, stress-management, mental health or doctor’s orders, when we climb those stairs and swipe our cards we’re there for a reason. For me, my story was complex, after a few years of ill health, exercise was the one thing I hadn’t tried, not because it hadn’t been recommended but because it wasn’t something I was ever very good at.
But after 6 miscarriages, an epilepsy diagnosis and frequent migraines I decided to give it a go. I was reluctant at first, especially when I discovered no one wears old clothes to the gym any more and every woman I met already looked perfect. I really didn’t think I belonged here but I knew I wanted to change and I knew the only way to change was if I kept coming back. It wasn’t easy, the classes quickly demonstrating just how unfit I was, hiding at the back of the room and refusing to look at myself in the mirror, but with the enthusiasm and encouragement of the instructors I made it through to the end. Even though I was struggling to breathe and looked like I might collapse I felt good, I felt positive, I felt energised. I also started to notice a change in my body shape but more importantly in my mood, my migraines and fits becoming less frequent and my body finally recovering from the trauma it had lived through.
I now actually enjoy exercise and that is not a sentence I thought would ever come out of my mouth. I am not the most coordinated, my face will always go bright red as soon as I start moving and I know I will never look as good as the rest of the women who come here, but I still love it because I’ve doing something for myself. I feel empowered and positive and energised and healthier both mentally and physically. I still carry my story with me every time I go up those stairs and swipe my card at the turnstile, but coming here has helped change the story I’m living now and it’s helped change it for the better so thank you!